It’s amazing how quickly and drastically your world changes when you become a parent… in the best way! I guess you technically become a parent when you become pregnant, but it didn’t really hit me until I saw our beautiful daughter for the first time. The instant love I felt for our baby took my breath away.
The last couple of months leading up to Lively’s arrival were a big transition, with moving to a new city and Duncan beginning his journey through medical school. We knew we wanted me to be able to stay home with Lively Mae once she was born, so that left a couple of months leading up to her arrival for quite a bit of free time. It was totally different from the fast-paced lifestyle we lived before, and for the first time in a long time I had to be intentional about finding things to fill my time and pursuing new friendships; that being said, I cleaned the house pretty much constantly, so it was nearly spotless (it was definitely a tangible way for me to feel like I was accomplishing something). I walked every morning with Cannon and a friend and her dog, and other than that, I really didn’t have set plans most days; about once a week I’d have a doctor’s appointment, but that was basically the extent of what I had to do.
As much as I enjoyed those couple months of rest and being able to get settled into our new home, it made me even more excited for our baby’s arrival. And now that she’s here, my life has changed all over again! I love that my days revolve around taking care of our precious Lively. Even though it’s challenging (I’m sore; I don’t get much sleep, because she wakes up multiple times at night to eat, and even when she’s not awake I check constantly to make sure she’s still breathing… I think I’m a little paranoid since she’s our first; learning how to feed her isn’t as easy as it seems and is a little painful at first), I wouldn’t change a thing! Nothing compares to the sweet moments when she looks up into my eyes or wraps her tiny fingers around mine. I cherish how happy she is in the mornings and the cute cooing sounds she makes.
Our lives are changing once again, but it is the best change I could imagine. I’m blown away by my husband; he goes to his classes all day (which is hard enough in itself), then comes home and is so intentional with Lively Mae and me. The three of us snuggle up on the couch, while he holds her and talks to me about my day and his. He studies hard, but takes breaks to feed her a bottle in the evening and just spend time with her. He prays over her each night, and I know without a doubt he cherishes this time and our daughter the same way I do. The love we have for our daughter is something we’ve never felt before, and I now have a better idea of what people mean when they say God’s love for you is revealed in a whole new way when you have a child.
The house isn’t nearly as clean and there are always things left on my to-do list at the end of the day, but I would never want it any different. I would a million times rather have my day filled with baby snuggles and prayers for our Lively (and a fair share of dirty diapers, spit up, and baby cries). We are so grateful to our Heavenly Father and all of the amazing people He’s placed in our lives who support us, encourage us, and who love our daughter. A special thank-you to our moms who took turns coming to stay with us the past two weeks and helped with everything; they’ve made the transition so much smoother! More pictures of our girl and her birth story to come soon!
Always and forever,